Relapse

I've been so good the past few months avoiding the Rumor Queen site and now I'm afraid to admit I've suffered a relapse. For some reason I've been an emotional wreck this week and I keep searching for info on referrals. The last few months referrals have been sent by about the 25th so I was expecting them this week. Now they'll come out Monday at the earliest. I keep hoping things will speed up at least a little. I hadn't checked the RQ site since April but today I've been on there at least 4 times. I really shouldn't have looked. Now I have the knots in my stomach that were ever-present for several months before I forced myself to avoid the rumors. There was a really good rumor on there that I wish would be true. Of course it won't and now that I've seen it I'll be disappointed when it's confirmed that it isn't true. Ugh! Why do I do this to myself?

Must....stay....strong....avoid....rumors....